I was booked on to some training this week... but I couldn't make it because I was ill. And by ill I mean, my mental health stopped me from going. My mental health affects a lot of things and can affect my motivation to get up and do anything. Even picking up my camera. But it's ok. Because it never takes away the love I have for this industry. And when I do feel better I work my butt off to catch up on the things I wanted to do. (That's probably why I love cinematography and my lighting so much- it's the light to my darkness.) But I know I need to slow down and not give up. To make sure I rest and take the time to not overwork myself, which can be a difficult thing when you are freelance or working on set. I was excited for this training and had it booked for months. And I know I can book on to another one at a later stage, but it sucks I missed it. However, things don't always go to plan and that's ok.
Whether it's training booked, a camera that doesn't want to play ball on a photoshoot (which happened recently) or not being paid on time. It is all ok. There are always ways around it, things can be fixed, doors open to different paths and you can go in multiple different directions.
One thing I have started to learn is that, no matter how much you plan you need flexibility too. You need to be able to adapt to changes. This can be a difficult thing anyway but it's good to practice it. Whilst it is good to have goals and you should never lose sight of them and your dreams, be flexible. Let things happen when they need to happen. Don't push and force something to happen if it isn't the right time.
And most importantly, do what is right for you. If you need to take time off or cancel that training session because you are not in the right frame of mind to concentrate and give it your all- rest. Because the world will be there waiting for you when you return.